History & Vision
“ Being feared is what earned you ‘respect’ in my neighborhood.”
I grew up in Canarsie, Brooklyn — a neighborhood that helped inspire Goodfellas. Respect there wasn’t given; it was taken. And to avoid getting my ass kicked on a continuum, I trained relentlessly in martial arts under some extraordinary mentors.
In the dojo, I learned something different:
Respect wasn’t earned through fear — it was earned by facing fear.
But I noticed something else. The true masters moved differently. Their punches and kicks didn’t feel like strikes; they felt like waves of force that stopped me cold. They operated from a heightened awareness — as if they could sense what others couldn’t. This energy my instructor called Chi, I had to understand it.
Awakenings
One night after sparring, drifting toward sleep, I imagined John Lennon sitting on a cloud, spinning the Earth on his finger and singing:
“People say I’m crazy, lost in confusion…
I tell them there’s no problem, only solutions…
I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round…”
Suddenly, I felt electric — as if I’d been plugged into a socket. Energy surged through me and into everything around me. In the near-dark, I grabbed a pen. Something wrote through me.
The next morning, I read what I’d written and was stunned. The words were foreign — and yet deeply familiar — as though a hidden part of me had spoken.
That same year, during peak martial arts training, I began sensing an energetic field beyond my hands. Friends felt it too. I could “push” them without touching them. Was it real? Or were we imagining it?
Then came the moment that erased all doubt.
A WTF Moment
It was NFL Sunday. My friend Tom and I had just placed bets with our neighborhood bookie and were back at my apartment, Led Zeppelin blasting. Tom, who trained martial arts with me, asked me to try that “energy thing” on him.
He lay down. I hovered my hands about a foot above his chest.
After a few minutes, he screamed,
“It’s burning me!”
He tore off his shirt and bolted upright.
We stared at each other in disbelief. A dark red welt — nearly three inches long — had appeared on his chest, seemingly from nowhere.
That was my WTF moment.
Whatever this chi–energy was, I was determined to understand it — even if it took the rest of my life.
That same week, Deepak Chopra’s Quantum Healing mysteriously appeared on my bookshelf. I was captivated by the idea of mind-body connection and “meaningful coincidences” — especially the story of a heart transplant recipient who began experiencing the memories of their donor.
Our thoughts… in our organs?
Looking back, I see now that I was being guided to explore the invisible thread connecting everything — though I had no idea where it would lead.
From Injury to Inspiration
Years of intense weight training destroyed my back. Doctors told me I’d live with chronic pain.
Then one chiropractic adjustment changed everything. My spine cracked like lightning — and the pain vanished.
I jumped off the table and said,
“Bullshit. I’m going to chiropractic school.”
I crushed a three-year pre-med track in 18 months and enrolled at Los Angeles College of Chiropractic, immersing myself in anatomy and physiology.
What fascinated me most were feedback loops.
Every system in the body self-regulated:
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Sympathetic vs. parasympathetic
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Hormones vs. antihormones
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Flexion vs. extension
It was the same mantra of balance drilled into us at the dojo.
But I wanted to know:
Who — or what — was the invisible referee keeping the score?
Mind Meets Matter
While in chiropractic school, I worked nights delivering pizzas for Domino’s. One coworker had spent 15 years as a monk. He introduced me to Raja Yoga — the yoga of the mind.
By day, I trained the body.
By night, I trained the mind.
Slowly, I experienced moments of profound stillness — glimpses of something deeper.
Then I encountered a word that stopped me cold:
Psychoneuroimmunology.
The science that the psyche affects the nervous system, which in turn affects immunity. Everything was connected.
I became obsessed with how our thinking shapes disease — and healing.
I walked campus with a Walkman blasting Covey, Peale, Napoleon Hill, Tony Robbins. At home, I stretched on a yoga mat to Enya, lit candles — and sometimes would burst into tears.
Something was shifting inside me.
Then I found Wayne Dyer. Or perhaps he found me. His meditations on Om and Ahm felt like touching the third rail of consciousness.
And guess who he was touring with? Dr. Deepak Chopra!
More coincidence?
The Breakthrough: Equilibrium
At a guest lecture, a lanky man in a flashy suit took the stage. I expected a sales pitch.
Instead, Dr. John Demartini invoked Leibniz, Buddha, Brahma, Newton, and particle physics — weaving East and West into a single framework.
His unifying principle:
Equilibrium.
From Newton’s third law to emotional pleasure and pain, everything seeks balance. Highs become lows. Lows become highs. The more we cling to fantasy, the harder reality pushes back.
This wasn’t positive thinking. This was equilibrated thinking. It was the piece of the puzzle I was looking for.
I dropped out of chiropractic school and worked with Dr. Demartini from 1995 to 2005, traveling the world as his promoter and protégé. Like a sponge, I soaked up a deeper understanding of equilibrium.
Then everything changed.
My Dark Night
On January 9, 2005, my mother — Lorraine — died at 56. She was my rock. My best friend.
Her death shattered me.
I isolated myself in a Florida home for three weeks, grieving and questioning everything. Could equilibrium explain this?
Through tears, I began writing. I searched for the qualities my mother had given me — love, empathy, nurturing — in the people around me.
Slowly, balance returned.
Then something extraordinary happened.
At dinner, I met a woman named Lorraine.
from Brooklyn. Age 56. Coffee in one hand and a cigarette in the other. Mom’s twin?
I whispered to my girlfriend,
“Her birthday is January 9th.”
I asked Lorraine her birthday.
It was January 9th.
In that moment something shifted. I felt connected to everything — beyond life and death.
Equilibrium wasn’t just a concept. It was a state of being.
ThankGodi & the Rise of Equilibration™
I published my story, Thank God My Mom Died.
Not because I was glad she died,
but because she gave me the greatest gift of all.
In her passing, my mom bridged the line between life and death.
Her physical absence became a teacher.
Others followed.
One client titled her book Thank God I Was Raped—
not to glorify the trauma, but to name the moment she reclaimed her power and found equilibrium through unimaginable hardship.
That was when I founded ThankGodi.com —
a platform for real stories of people discovering balance, meaning, and resilience through their deepest challenges.
We worked with first-time authors and New York Times bestsellers. We appeared on ABC-TV and in a film featuring His Holiness the Dalai Lama.
Behind the scenes, running a publishing company was brutal — logistics, technology disruption, financial pressure.
But the mission endured. And in 2026, ThankGodi will announce its next publication.
The Road to Equilibration™
The greatest battle isn’t out there.
It’s inside us.
A tug-of-war between emotion and intuition.
Between fear and truth.
Addicted to fantasy, identity, and predictability, we often ignore the very intuition that could lead us home. Yet it exists in the dead center—within our inner equilibrium.
That’s why I coined and trademarked:
Equilibration™ — think of it as martial-arts ninja for the mind.
I spent years refining this skill, helping people dissolve emotional charge and return to clarity, resilience, and self-trust.
Equilibration™ is the gateway to inner freedom.
The Future of Equilibrium
When the COVID bioweapon hit, I recognized the signs: fear-based narratives, manipulation, censorship.
We face a new frontier — AI, machine learning, quantum computing.
It’s a war on attention. On cognition. On the human mind.
Its global genocide .
But, we will win — by mastering our minds. And we will beat them with their own technology.
That’s why I’ve partnered with top developers in India, Dubai, and the U.K. to bring Equilibration™ into the future.
We’re building:
- Apps
- Games
- Courses
- Publications
- Events
- Films
We’re building a full mind–body equilibrium ecosystem.
Our mission is to develop leaders with equilibrated thinking. By repurposing technology, we’re creating tools that help future generations master balance—and lead the new world.
In Gratitude
To everyone who has walked this path with me — and to those I’ve yet to meet:
Thank you.
Equilibration™ isn’t just a method. It’s a movement.
We are part of something greater.
And I look forward to walking this journey together.
The Gateway
Equilibrium is the gateway to the mind.
Equilibration is the key to that gateway.
This is not ideology.
It is not belief.
It is a direct practice.
A lived experience.
And we invite you to explore emotional equilibrium with us.
This is the battle of a lifetime.
Our mission is to develop leaders with equilibrated thinking. By repurposing technology, we’re creating tools that help future generations master balance—and lead the new world.